I like being right but I hate the circumstances that make me right

if you found this page it's because you want to see the times i was right, but hated the circumstances that made me right, these will usually be major events, and probably traumatic, so, read with caution.

Time 2: a friend of mine, Tiralis, i was talking with and trying to get her to drop the hateful christian scripture to be better (i've met plenty of christians who have dropped it and were and are wonderful) and so it turned into a whole thing, and i thought she'd end up hating me and giving up on trying to change, and she did. i didn't like the circumstances because i hated to lose her as a friend, and now idk what's happened with her.

Time 1: Winter, a friend, left me her server on discord, and i thought it was permanent, and she made it seem like it was or that that was that, then she comes back a few days later, and tries begging me for it back, and so i said to take 2 weeks of being admin to get reacclimated, and to make it easier to keep things stable, and then she just was not having it, and there was a whole thing, and argument, and i just gave her server back and left it. turns out that 13 days later she killed herself, and my saying to take 2 weeks was right, and i should have held my ground on that. i still blame myself for it.